A bit distress

It's quiet a descent amount of weight, on your mind and sense of freedom, when you realize that your action/deed is harmful to another, in particular when it is someone you admire, love, respect and appreciate. What is it that keeps me from realizing a misdeed before i start to do it, why can't i realize it at least in the process and right away see a way out of the situation that's clean and harmless.

No. You have to do it all the way to the core, like taking an axe and hitting that ferrari head on all the way in burrying the axe deep in it creating a black hole situation image. And then it's like your soul is stranded squished between cold metal bars. God dammit. What the fuck, why the hell does this happen to me. Jesus christ forgive me please. I wish i could at least realize the way i should live my life now.

I'm about to be stuck in a tense spot. A spot where i have to make a decision. But until then i must get on the right path of behavior, taking care of myself, and my life.

But nevertheless the moral of the story is, do not try to tell the young guy that he's not yet reached the life that I'm in. He will start to defend himself, and treat your message as an attack, and therefore push away from you. And besides saying that is very egoistic don't ever say that, ever.

Besides what i really wanted to say is that the young guy had a great amount of life energy! And that is great, he's mr positive. To tell you the truth i wouldnt want you to change and be like me at all, i love you because your mr . positive! Please forgive me for ever bringing that up.

Ye so lets roll.

But to all you ppl out there take care of yourselves, do something good for yourself right now, and do something good for anyone whos near you now, like a hug and a kiss, be happy in peace and in love!

It's been quiet some time since i've written anything here. That is because i've been away traveling through other vibrations of life, there was no access to blogger in them. But I'm getting to a point of a new launch. Wish me luck.

Just a little comment on the previous entries. Ha! That last one was just something, it took by surprise, having passed so much time I've completely forgot that I ever wrote something like that. And boy was it a nice mixture of emotions for me, funny, shameful, i even thought about deleting it, but what the heck let it be history... P.S. (It almost feels like a Acid Lunatic wrote those entries.)

As for now the vibrations of change, are within reach. We can reach them if we try. You ask what to do with them once we reach them? Change the now destroying nature of human kind into, creation and achievement, into healing and art, into caring and feeling... into loving. Yes it may sound idealistic, hippy like. But that isn't bad, and it is much a preference to what is going on now in the world.

Vibrations of change are within reach. But to grip them one must illuminate Love and the essence of wellbeing. And one must be absolutely sure of his path and absolute bravery in his steps. Need to work on that. Need to work period.